what happened??

i don't know what is going on to myself actually... after the midsem break, i loss my attention in stdy..became lazy, like to sleep, cannot focus and everyth.. i can't generate my mind to focus and most of the assignments i postponed and now these thing become a lot and i've to settle in limited time. but, i tried to motivate myself. last minute task is OK.. hik3.. but the most important precious thing is the Quality.. just now, i just came back from group discussion for EOP.. during that time, i organized to do my like hill assignments..hehe.. but, now, what is happening?? i surf internet and writing the blog... i've no mood actually.. i've to fight all those nonsense matter.. i've built my principal to follow.. more effort deserve the best.. i hope i can hold this principle.. sometimes, i feel everything is very difficult.. but i know, after each difficulties, there is a relief.. something is better than nothing k.. go bidadari.. you can do it!!!

yeah..

** there a lot of grammar errors in this post.. but, i don't care!! hik3..

nervousness

this evening i have EOP class (english for occupational purpose).. my class members did their presentation well with the nice slide and interesting video. but, when its come to the part of comment, i was stood up and gave my comment. i know, everybody must be clear with the meaning of comments aite?? some words came out from our mind and we deliver them in order to make it clear. i just commented what is in my mind. suddenly, something happened to me. i'm not going to condenm my friend, but it was my opinion only. i'm not saying she present very bad. but she only not present as well as the presentation should be. lack of eye contact and she just stand up and read the slide. only that things i can recognize. but my love love lovely lecturer (i cannot write her name) not agree with me instead she condemn my comment.. oh my God... i just accepted her comments physically, but mentally i'm not because i cannot explained to the whole class especially her (my lecturer lah) what i'm going to said actually. i realised, i'm not a good person in delivering the speech especially in english, but i hope other people can understand what i'm going to tell to them.. until this time, my heart beating very fast because i 'm very nervous for my becoming presentation which about preparation of oral presentation. my instinct says, i was already pointed by my lecturer and i know she will condemn my presentation if i do any mistake.. i hope i can deliver my speech (presentation), hehe... very well.